SAN DIEGO — A San Diego woman who lost her mom to suicide is trying to offer to those who may be considering taking their own life. Along with her son, Amanda Shane posts anti-suicide messages all around the city.  

“I like this one a lot because it says, ‘I love you so much I left this note here for you just in case you needed a reminder,’” Amanda said.  

With each handwritten message Amanda and her 24-year-old son Andrew are on a mission to spread hope and to prevent suicide. 

"You have the power to decide this is not how your story will end,” said Amanda. 

Amanda lost her 65-year-old mom Deb to suicide last year in January.  

 "I'm 40 and I have to live the rest of my life without her,” said Amanda. 

Instead of asking why, last month Amanda decided to fan across San Diego with messages of hope.  

 "In this beautiful city, there are hearts that hurt,” she said.  

Amanda has a map with push pins marking the bridges, laundromats, trolleys, and encampments where she and her son have tied handwritten messages on index cards in a weather-proof bag including the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

"It just reminds me that this can help prevent suicide in the future and if I can help one family then I feel like I am doing my job,” said Andrew.  

The American Psychological Association says suicide is the second leading cause of death for 10 – 34-year-olds. Amanda says mental illness does run in her family, but her mother didn't suffer from it.  

Neighbors near the Vermont Street bridge in University Heights have taken notice.  

"We all have low moments,” said one neighbor. “You never know what poeple are going through so if you can bring hope to one person it’s worth the effort.” 

Another of Amanda’s messages reads: “When you feel like giving up, just remember all the reasons why you held on for so long.”  

If you would like to help Amanda's handwritten message mission send her an email at

The National Suicide Prevention Hotline can be reached at 1-800-273-8255.